Even though i don't disrespect women, i'll make an exception in your case. YOU ARE ONE ARROGANT FUCKING BITCH!!

Dad

Dad turned 60 last week and he retired on September 30, 2009. He spent 38 years with the same organization. Phew!! And i can't seem to spend more than 2 yrs in one place.

Even though he is a qualified engineer, he took a clerical job with a nationalised bank because it paid him better than an engineering job in a private firm. And at that time money mattered more than the nature of the job. In spite of his engineering background he knows more about banking than people with a commerce background. No surprise he retired as a Senior Executive. He knows more about the financial markets than the financial consultants who come home. He could and still can answer most of my questions. I sometime gets scared if i'll be able to answer all the questions my future kid(s) is/are going to pose and then i realise that i have the power of Internet.

Anybody with a normal upbringing thinks his or her father is the best. The same holds true for me. Another thing that makes my really happy is the fact that all my close friends think my father is cool. If your friends think your father is cool, he has to be cool. Not that i didn't know it already but nothing like hearing it straight from the horse's mouth. How many of your friends think your father is cool?

There are a hazaar reasons why i consider my dad the best, but here are a few that top the list:

• When he found out that i wasn't interested in Engineering, he asked me to drop out and pursue whatever else interested me, even though i had already spent two years in engineering by then.
• When i was flunking and getting bad grades in Engineering and was mentally at my lowest point ever, instead trying to reason out why his son with an above average IQ was getting bad grades, he sat next to me, put his arm around my shoulder, and told me that i was his son and no matter what he will always be proud of me.
• He never once thought i'd amount to nothing. Even when i used think so.
• He is a very practical man and looks at things and addresses situations with a positive attitude.

I love my Dad and i'll consider myself lucky if i turn out to be a small fraction of the man he is.

Respect

You are losing my respect. Yes, finally. Respect is very important. You lose my respect, you lose everything else and love is the first thing on the list. I used to think this would never happen in your case but now i'm in a way happy to finally see it happen. I wish to live to see the day when i accidentally bump into you and i would look at you like you were just another face in the crowd.

In a dream last night, you were respectful towards me. It is funny and also unfortunate that i have to dream about being respected by you. It is funny because i'm a person with a lot of self-respect and i don't remember the number of times i have swallowed my pride for you. It is unfortunate because even if by some miracle you treat me with respect some time in the future, i have had enough bad experiences to never take anything you say or for that matter even your behaviour at face value.

In other news, my former neighbour is on the cover of the August issue of Vogue India.

Trust

Sometimes when I'm under a shower head, under spewing jets of hot water, I'm reminded of the day you said you wanted to be in the shower with me. I assume the fact that I wasn't interested in you, especially when you felt the whole world and its father wanted to sleep with you, is what made me attractive. I was never physically attracted to you. I always felt that you were a lost kid, a girl child who didn't get much love from her father. I was naive to think that I could fill that void, to think that I could give you that love. I was stupid to assume a lot of things but I had to as you never told me much about your past. Even though you confessed your love for me, you did not trust me. I trusted you completely but your behaviour coupled with your history did not let that trust last long. I agree that the manner in which I expressed my loss of trust wasn't ideal but at least I was honest.

I keep trying to rekindle our friendship because I still consider you special. But I do not know if I will try again because it is not easy to do so after being treated the way I have been in the recent past. I'm not sure how long you will remain special, even though a voice inside my head keeps screaming, "Not very long".

Mojo's return

Armed with genitalia
interchangeable ones
On amber sands
restless
like tadpoles in cesspool
Wriggling out of adolescence
unaccustomed youth
Her bosom
brings to life
A bloodless coup
impossible
imploding
impertinent
Instant gratification vouchers
bought, received,
cannot be redeemed
Curtains down
it's over, the show
Come one, come all
every night
we have something new

Key to happiness

What is the key to your happiness? Do you know?

I might be generalizing here but I think for most of us it's certain people, things, events, moments which can independently or in combination bring happiness. When it comes to people, anybody who has the power to make us happy also has the power to cause distress (true in most cases).

Now, let’s talk about me. I used to have a key to my happiness or should I say a key to my emotions? I had the original with me and distributed a copy of the key to all my loved ones (some of them were assumed loved ones and others were those who openly declared their love for me and I believed them) with or without their knowledge. Yes, I know I’m stupid. So, these people now had some amount of control over my emotions. When the going was good, I used to think it couldn’t get any better but one bad moment would leave me in a state of unrest. And once things went out of control and a so called loved one started treating me like a doormat, I went in to a state of depression. Reading books written by some wise men and women is what got me out of that horrible state of mind.

I did learn my lessons though. I have now changed the locks. There is a new key which works on it's own and only I have access it. There are no copies of it. The old key still works but only in combination with the new key. So, if somebody has to make me happy or sad, they have to first use their key and I can later decide whether or not to use mine. :)

2008

Dee has done this. Even though i wasn't tagged, i decided to answer the same questions so that i could boast of having posted something.

What did you do in 2008 that you’d never done before?
Got a tattoo. Actually, two of them.

Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
Have never made any. Don't intend to.

Did anyone close to you give birth?
No.

Did anyone close to you die?
No.

What countries did you visit?
None. Saw more of India though.

What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008?
A romantic relationship.

What date from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
Not big on dates but will probably remember the joining date in this new company.

What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Got a job with my dream company but soon realised that the grass is always greener on the other side.

What was your biggest failure?
Wallowing in self-pity at the beginning of the year.

Did you suffer illness or injury?
No.

What was the best thing you bought?
A Creative Zen W 60 gb (personal media player).

Whose behavior merited celebration?
My parents'. Always merits celebration.

Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
A close friend's behaviour and on occassions my own.

Where did most of your money go?
Electronics (PMP, LCD TV and PlayStation), shoes (I'm a guy and can you believe i have 14 pairs of footwear?) and clothes.

What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Nothing. Don't get excited that easily.

What song will always remind you of 2008?
None in particular.

Compared to this time last year, are you:
happier or sadder?
Way too happier. :)

thinner or fatter?
Thinner. I'm really close to realising my dream of having flat abs. ;)

richer or poorer?
Slightly richer.

What do you wish you’d done more of?
Made more female friends. :P

What do you wish you’d done less of?
Trying to analyse a friend's psyche. :D

How will you be spending Christmas?
Didn't.

Did you fall in love in 2008?
Nope. :(

How many one-night stands?
Hmmm.

What was your favorite tv program?
Stopped watching TV this year.

Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
Hate nobody. Period.

What was the best book you read?
Read a lot. Re-read quite a few. Can't really put my finger on one.

What was your greatest musical (re)discovery?
Re-discovered Alan Parsons Project and AC/DC.

What did you want and get?
LCD TV.

What did you want and not get?
A complete reconciliation with a close friend. Actually, looking back i'm not sure if i really want it that bad.

What was your favorite film of this year?
Death at a funeral.

What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
Turned 27. Had an awesome dinner with family (yummy food cooked by Mom).

What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Mental peace at the beginning of the year.

How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008?
Discovered that sweat shirts and cargo trousers are the best when you don't feel like going to office but have to as you are swamped with work.

What/who kept you sane?
The Bhagawad Gita.

Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Jessica Alba and Jessica Biel

What political issue stirred you the most?
PM's reaction to the Mumbai attacks.

What did you miss?
No longer being an important person in a friend's life.

Who was the best new person you met?
Joe from work.

Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008.
Let go.

Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
Can't think of any.