let go...

On Saturday, I shaved my head for the first time in my life. My Mom was a little vexed because the caste i'm born into allows a man to shave his head only when a parent passes away. I shaved my head because i have receding hairline and the barber did a poor job of cutting whatever hair i had. There is another reason. Recently, I decided to let go of something and i wasn't really sure if i did the right thing. After a while, I was convinced that i did the right thing. I don't want to reconsider my decision because i've been tempted to do so in the past. For the next few days, every time i look in the mirror, i want to be reminded that i let go of it for my own good, the way i let go of my hair.

Also, i don't want to get attached to a person or a relationship. Actually, i don't want to get attached to anything. I know it's really hard but i want to be able achieve it. According to Hinduism, Lotus signifies detachment and spiritual awakening. Most Indians know the significance of Om. I wanted something to remind me every single day that i am trying to achieve detachment from everything. Last year while looking for a design for my first tattoo, I found an 'Om-inscribed-in-a-Lotus'. I have not had a spiritual awakening but the detachment part made sense and i felt that it was the right time to get that tattoo done. On Sunday, i got it done on the back of my neck.

I don't want to be a monk but i hope that the decisions i've made in the past few days will help me become a better human being.

p.s: I have neither joined Bhajarang dal nor have i turned religious overnight. I'm currently reading the Bhagavat Gita which is doing me a world of good.